Misconstrued Healing Symptoms and Signs
Some of you know that I don't like the term "symptoms" in relationship to awakening. It's because that makes the awakening sound like a sickness. It's not. You're actually healing. You were sick. Here is a list of social symptoms that many people are healing from:
- Fear of not having enough
- Fear of being alone
- Self-hate/lack of self-love
- Sadness and despair
- Hatred and discrimination of oneself and others
Furthermore, all of our bodies and souls are very intelligent. They are all trying to heal anyway, so many people end up in deep healing processes. That's wonderful to be healing! But just because you have some of the listed "signs" of awakening doesn't mean you are awakening. However, I encourage you to embrace whatever shift is going on because you are going to feel so much better. And the identity that some egos are trying to create around "being awakened" just doesn't matter.
Another Annoying List of Spiritual Awakening Signs
One last note, while people in healing, purification, and other spiritual shifts have many of the same "signs" of awakening, the big, big, BIG difference is energetic. I can really only say that it feels different to be around someone who is awakened. They also have an immense understanding of the importance of the internal world, i.e. they may want to help others around the world, but they don't really want to "change" the world and make it the way their egos think it should be.
As for what I can put into words, the spiritual awakening is marked by these things:
- Immense sense of love for all of life
- Profound clarity and understanding of what is real and true
- Profound sense of peace within yourself and with how the world is
Those are the two biggest signs of the awakening. Now here's the long list of stuff that can also be evidence of healing as well of embodying/integrating the spiritual awakening awareness into your everyday life. Oftentimes, spiritual awakening involves a lot of deep healing because of the shift going inside. It can be like healing the broken leg and learning to do the 100M dash simultaneously. Pretty intense.
Here's the aforementioned list:
- Fatigue, chronic fatigue, or exhaustion
- Increased sensitivity or hyper sensitivity to other people
- Increased sensitivity or hyper sensitivity to the local environment (city, home, etc.)
- Increased urges to connect deeply with others
- Appearances of profound soul connections to help you do what you are here to do (this may include soulmates, twin flames, your guides, and other helpers--Not all helpers bring easy lessons, however)
- Changes in diet, usually going towards vegetarianism, but doing whatever it is your body needs to have in a specific moment. It doesn't get caught up in a diet identity (i.e. making yourself Vegan or Vegetarian)
- Changes in sleep patterns
- Changes in your body and exercise routines
- Surges of energy in your body that can feel like vibrations, heat, and so forth
- Unable to think in old thinking patterns
- Lost focus on the physical world (which means you're very ungrounded)
- A tendency to go into solitude
- A tendency to get in touch with nature
- Emergence of spiritual and psychic gifts
- Body pain, tense, and occasional illness as old "density" or pain is shifted and cleared
What Do All These Signs Mean?
For those that are in awakening, it doesn't really mean much. All this list can do is encourage you to go within and pay attention to your needs. For those in healing or purification processes (which are equally beautiful), it also doesn't really mean much. All you can do is go within and pay attention to your needs.
Do you notice a theme here?
The big thing is not getting caught up in ego identities. I see too much of that going on these days. Mainly, it's happening to those who haven't had a big awakening, but you know that wiley ego likes to try and hang around even after big awakenings. Which is why those who have awakened must learn to constantly smile at it and lovingly say, "I see you little one, and I know what you are up to."
Reasons For Extended Solitude
Because everyone is different, these thoughts will strike each of you differently. Some people will only need a couple days of solitude because of their processes. Others may need years. I'm kind of in the "years" bucket. This definitely challenged my old ego self, especially since awakening made it so easy for me to connect with people.
Here are some other thoughts around why many of us choose solitude:
- Not many people understand the process, and it's horribly frustrating to have to explain it to people again and again when you don't fully understand it yourself.
- Opening up makes you extremely vulnerable on multiple levels. You can be taken advantage of by well-meaning and not-so-well-meaning people on every level.
- Some things need to be figured out in solitude without distractions and without having to worry about someone else.
- You need a lot of rest to integrate all the changes in your consciousness. This process is like having all your internal hardware ripped out, re-configured, and put back in. Lying on the ground may appear to others as doing nothing, but internally, it's like running 4 marathons.
- Despite the high need for rest, exercise is hugely important. I'm talking yoga, walking, hiking, and conscious movement practices. Especially if you're clearing some heavy issues out of yourself, this will help move it out of your body memories.
Since you're tearing away the veils of "what you think is right for you" that you'd created or inherited from the expectations of your family, that will also include your eating habits. Suddenly, steak doesn't sit well with you. Potato chips make you feel sick to your stomach, and you're carrying around carrots and sugar snap peas in your bag everywhere you go (I know at least one person who is smiling about this line). You will need to experiment a lot and change your diet as needed to meet the changing needs of your body and soul.
While your diet is undergoing a dramatic shift (there will be times when you eat hardly anything and times when you binge), you're also trying to figure out who your friends are. Because your relationship to yourself is shifting, how you relate to other people is shifting. You'll see everyone in a new light. It's dramatic. You'll find some people will now be drawn very closely to you, and you'll find that you'll have to let go of others. Some people do come back into your life later on, but there are never any guarantees.
This is a super exciting time as well because you're becoming extremely aware on multiple levels. This is a point where intuition sharpens, healing abilities appear, and all kinds of amazing gifts surface. As your old self breaks down, new things can arise and emerge on the surface. It's so important to practice these gifts to hone them and to own them. It's extremely helpful to make connections with other people who have this gifts or at least have the space and lack of judgment to let you practice them.
Building Spiritual Community
While I've mentioned the importance of being alone, it is extremely helpful to build a spiritual community around yourself. If you're fortunate enough to already be immersed in one, then consider yourself extremely lucky. For me, I definitely had to hunt down a lot of people, and now, I have connections all over the country and globe. However, having people nearby was a huge help to me as I shifted.
It's Not Personal, But It Is
It's all very intensely personal. You'll be so present at one time and so knocked out that you may find it difficult to function. Honestly, if my life path were different, I would have wanted to be in a monastery for the last three years. But it's important that more people awaken within society and not be cloistered outside of it. So, I moved through it as best as I could.
And if you are in spiritual awakening, you will have to do the best you can and to simply be with what is. It is a beautiful, if not messy, process, but the feeling of freedom and being yourself is extraordinary. You'll wonder how you could ever have lived any other way.
The lovely picture on this post comes from my student, Jenn. Thanks so much, dear one!