Monday, May 9, 2011
A Stroke of Insight
We reflect inward on the beauty of this rare sunny day as we look out the window. It was a long walk, but we made it there. I look into her eyes. One can see the youthfulness masked in the form of wrinkles around her eyelids. A barrier noticeably drops, and she softens into this moment. No words need to be said as I am with her and watch a few tears build up and suddenly fall down her cheeks. We embrace. I let her be, and she audibly sighs deeply. Despite the droop of her face on one side, she states, "I am going home." She is to be discharged the next day. I am reminded of being brought home in a different way.
Another patient and I are looking out the same window at a different time. I am now affectionately calling this the window of vulnerability. Once again we share a similar moment. Except this time, he softly states, "I forgot." He’s referring to forgetting how to walk since his stroke. I am reminded of how we often "forget" ourselves.
I am thankful to witness these incredible moments of vulnerability, honesty, and Truth. This person has allowed me a moment to be vulnerable just as I have allowed her. I often forget which person is the healer.
My chest instantly lightens while the density drifts away in these moments I share with the patients. I have been trying to define what is causing the dense feeling in my chest. I know it is a blockage. After weeks of delineating what the cause could be, I am finally giving up. Perhaps I don’t need to know if this blockage is due to a past life, past experience, social conditioning, or anything else of the imagination. Trying to define the cause only brings me further from me finding my way home. The only prescription needed is to sigh and let go.
Susan started to cultivate a deeper relationship with the Creator four years ago when she was introduced to the works of Eckhart Tolle's, "The Power of Now" by Jim Tolles. Her life has been transformed in countless ways since then.