As a corollary, dissolving into consciousness isn't a word-play game or a mental idea. You can't simply say, "Oh, well, I'm already consciousness, cool. Great. I'm done." This is one of those ways where the ego tries to "win" at spirituality, but in our hearts, we always know. We know if we've truly accepted and embraced this truth fully or if we're playing a game with ourselves to try and feel good and accomplished or whatever it is the ego is trying to get. And there's nothing here to get either. Becoming spiritually free isn't about getting free; it's about seeing that we've always been free.
After the Jailbreak
For those who woke up and burned through karma like a bonfire for several days, months, or even years, you may find that you are not "perfect" as the firestorm subsides. Some of you may find huge blindspots and levels of unconsciousness still hanging out. A part of you might be asking, "Did I do this wrong?" Of course not. You are simply rediscovering that you are human being and that you are still living in a world with certain limitations that must be accepted. As an example, we have two eyes that look forward. We cannot look behind us. It is a limitation as part of a human being, and that's okay.
The Deepening Connection with Unconsciousness and BlindspotsIn the old days, the unconscious ego denied that it had unconsciousness or blindspots. Or perhaps it played the victim role and pretended it was powerless and that it never would be able to know anything anyhow. Whatever that was about, much of it will be gone after the awakening shift. However, some old patterns, behaviors, and karmas like to hang on. Perhaps they are simply part of your life lesson to more gradually grow out of these things. The key difference is that you know they're there, and so when they get ignited, it's infinitely clearer what's going on. In that awareness, you can choose your actions more wisely than in the past. It still doesn't mean that things will go easier for you in life now that you can see these elements of yourself, but taking conscious action is part of how we embody the fullness of our love and truth. Taking conscious action to continue to notice and address blindspots and unconscious programs still running around naturally dissolves then and moves us more deeply into being. From that space, it becomes more and more natural to simply trust what arises in any given moment.
The Arising of ActionTo the ego, it seems impossible that we can simply have action arise in a moment without lots of thinking or--from the other end of the spectrum--without it being mindless, instinctual, and unthought-out. So in this way, we discover that intuitive action is both mindful, but not lost in the mind. It is a way of thinking and acting that accords itself with the divine knowing that is within you and within all of us. In some situations, it is the only way to make a sane choice because there is simply no way to get enough information and analyze it all in any reasonable sort of way. Consider going to a university these days. Do you have any idea just how many educational institutions there are? I saw one number online that stated there are over 4,000 just in the U.S. How in the world do you choose reasonably for all of that? Obviously, there are plenty of criteria that can be used, and doing so mindfully helps you to narrow things down to, I don't know, say a good 50 schools. But let's be serious; it's a big decision, and there are countless other criteria that you really can't intellectually know until you are there. As a result, choosing intuitively can truly be the best if not the only way to make the right decision for you.
But before we get too far afield with examples, it is enough to say that you already know where you want to go. The dissolving into pure consciousness is about peeling away the remaining layers of lies and illusions that block you from simply doing what already feels true to you to do.
Sitting in the Quiet SpacesI've found that meditation continues to be a helpful tool for me to sit quietly and let things flow. I can still get a little off-balance at times, and so this is one area, where I continue to learn. And of course, if we don't embrace being off-balance, we don't know what it means to be in-balance. Consciousness embraces both; nothing is lost. There's a beautiful clarity and quiet to consciousness that does become part of every day life. Even if you are immensely caught up in a new romance, a bad day at work, or being seriously ill, that awareness is still there, engaged, and watchful. There's a way that that part of your awareness takes on a bigger and bigger sense of space within you even though it takes no space, if you follow my meaning. All the ideas, upset emotions, wounds, and so forth, those took space. Those covered up your inner spaciousness. It's like all the boxes and junk in your living room have been removed, and now you are feeling so much better. It's still your living room, but you've got so much more room to stretch out and enjoy life.
In that way, I find that quietly meditating or simply sitting with my eyes open being present to a moment naturally reminds me of that spaciousness that's always there within me. It's a simple practice with no need for timing it or achieving an experience. In fact, the need for any kind of experience is gone. Once again, any elements of an unconscious spiritual ego trying to get experiences and high state feelings will get in the way of the truth. The truth is you don't need any experience or feeling to be dissolved in consciousness. Whatever is going on, good, bad, or indifferent is part of that consciousness and is perfect as it is.
The Remaining PreferencesI think some people believe that dissolving in pure consciousness means that they'll be nothing but a smiling pile of goo or something, but as I said, all we're doing is no longer denying what we are. In the unconscious space, that denial goes on at every level of us from mind to heart to body to subtle energy fields. When we no longer do that and reside in consciousness, we simply are. From that space, we may notice that we still have certain preferences. Preferences include humor, sleep, food, exercise, and so forth. These, of course, are much less rigid than before. The unconscious ego held onto preferences and external reference points to define itself like a drowning man in the middle of the ocean clings to any piece of driftwood. So, you will have preferences, and this isn't a bad thing. This a human thing.
I think it is really important to really emphasize that transcending base desires and unconsciousness simply allows us to be more human--if that's a possibility. We are more human in the sense that we really are living in the world and not in some made-up fantasy. In all honesty, the current made-up world fantasy doesn't really jive with my preferences, and I much prefer living in the real world, which acknowledges that ideas don't explain all of life, that we are all interconnected, that hurting another is hurting ourselves, and so forth. I know it may sound different for some of you to hear me describe the real world as such, but trust me, the more dissolved in consciousness you are, the more you will see life clearly and feel more grounded in this world than ever before. Yet, you may also have a dexterity that allows you to go from the strength of the roots of a mountain to the soft shifting of the winds and the seas of change.
No Where to GoAt some point, you may fully realize that there is no where to go. Afterwards, then you can go anywhere. This is part of being untethered from unconsciousness. During the initial shift, it may be very confusing to the old ego self to have no desire to go anywhere, but afterwards, there's a greater ease in not needing to go anywhere. There's also more ease with going anywhere. It's all a play of consciousness, so it can all be enjoyed. There's no need to force anything, and there's no need to receive any kind of outcome. From this gentle, but strong place, you also will notice that you have become immensely powerful. People may take way more notice of what you say or do than ever before, and so as I've mentioned responsibility on this blog many times before, you will see why cultivating that deeper appreciation for responsibility has been so important.
For some of you, you will be very visible leaders, teachers, and community-builders in your local areas if not globally. As a result, this sense of responsibility will have naturally have seeped into you from many directions; you may also have had many hard purging fires come through to break old unconscious ego habits so that you will be ready for the work you are to share and which is already naturally arising in you. Just know that you are where you are supposed to be, and what you have to share will be the perfect and most beautiful expression of consciousness that you have to share.
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The hand-drawn droplet and water picture is a gift from my student, Vale. Thank you so much dear one!